Wednesday, March 25, 2020

Repairing new disrupted rhythms

Quick general update because not getting much time to write these days. Had a week of switching into full on staying focused mode, gearing the office and company up into full remote mode, rather than the partial remote mode we usually run. Luckily I'd done some forethought on what a partially remote company could look like and, even if we haven't rolled that out fully, it meant I was mentally prepared, and it turns out everyone is pretty great and is doing it all anyway.

I mean, I'm still making sure that our core infrastructure is as resilient as it can be, but others have sorted out setting up Zoom calls, putting together mental health guidance, grabbing spare monitors from the office, etc etc. There are some nice photos-from-home going round the office Slack, too, and it feels like we've ... 'opened up' a little in the move to being locked down.

At home, I'm moving to a series of half-days as we now have two boys to look after all day, and both of us parents are still working. I wasn't sure how this would go at all - the first week working remotely was without them, and that was kind of fun. I set up up in my summer house and enjoyed birdsong and my makeshift standing desk (an old bookshelf unit, not with tinges of mould from the winter).

But, fortunately, so far, this week has been good. We're lucky enough to have enough space for the four of us. It's been more relaxed not having the morning rush and the school pickup, and it's been intriguingly fun to do 'lessons' with the boys - I really appreciate the fact that they just love learning, and have come to think this is more fundamental than even literacy or maths. We can pick a subject and weave learning into it pretty easily. In 3 days we've looked at anglo-saxon history, normal distribution and probability, spelling, Scratch and Roblox coding, and a lot of trampolining and jogging round the pond.

So, I figure the plan is to hammer that out this week, get ourselves sorted and routine. It feels kind of selfish saying that as the world kicks off, but this Twitter thread on slowing down and looking after the essentials made a lot of sense to me. Hoping that next week I can find something useful to do in the community, but TBH looking after a company and a family is pretty tiring. I'm sure there will be some little things I can pick up, and I'll see if the NHS volunteering thing could fit into my routine.


One of the weirder things about it all is how much some people are really unaffected - or rather, the distinction in lifestyles is now being laid a bit more bare. I feel like I'm scrambling to re-factor my whole life, yet when I talk to developers who have no dependents, a lot of the time they say it's nearly 'business as usual' - sometimes even more productive!

So in some ways, I feel like I've reconnected to a lot of people, and there is a lovely openness that comes out in Britons in these times. But on the other hand, I also feel disconnected, like I'm in a very different place.

And yet. I talk to the team and to friends and family, and I dig a bit, and I find out that we're all anxious about something, that just because you're not panicing doesn't mean you're fine with things. Sometimes the anxiety is a longer term one - measureable in days or weeks, rather than hours.

So maybe the best thing I can do is just carry on chatting to people. Keep people's rhythms going.

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